I realized the other day I have been blogging on this site for nearly a year. My first blog was on April 26th of 2017. (there are some older posts, but they were initially on my Tumblr site, and I ported them over). It was this time last year I created this site to work on learning how to write. In the past year, I have written nearly 80 blog posts. This number does not include short musings
I was reading a blog post the other day, and it impressed me how the blogger was able to put her innermost thoughts and feelings out for people to see. It conveyed an honesty and transparency which are always missing from my posts. Why is that? Why do I struggle with expressing myself in my writing? Isn’t that what writing is all about?
I was reading the other day about a blogger excited about getting a certain number of followers. Another blogger worried how a change to her site layout was affecting her page views. I’m wondering to myself if my mindset for this blogging experiment is wrong because I could care less about my number of followers or what my page views are. Should I?
Don’t get me wrong; I have no problem with bloggers being concerned about followers or page views. Those are essential benchmarks to ensure they are fulfilling the needs of their readers.
While I’m not big on New Year resolutions; it is an excellent time to reflect and think about the year that was. When I began this blog last April, I didn’t know how it would evolve. I have a lot of varied interests, most of which don’t overlap, so it is hard to build a blog around them. As the CEO of a multi-million dollar company, I have an exciting work life, but it is also chaotic and stressful. I wanted a blog separate from all that turmoil, concentrated on more positive features. While I like to travel, outside an outstanding trip to Spain, I curtailed my normal travel schedule to deal with issues anchoring me close to home. And hovering over all those elements of my life was a persistent and pervasive fog of depression and anxiety which dominated much of my year.
I haven’t been writing a lot the last few weeks. With my job, this time of year is tough. I have to prepare my business for end-of-year taxes, so I get to huddle with the company bean-counters a lot the past few weeks. My partners and I also review the year and decide about bonuses, distributions, and next year’s budgets. Throw in the obligatory holiday events, vendor meetings and even personal holiday duties, I’ve had little time to write.
When I first started this blog 7 months ago, I had a simple goal. I wanted to learn how to write again. Over the years I’d noticed my writing had turned banal and repetitive. Most of what I wrote was for work, but even then I saw no reason I shouldn’t be able to make my prose cleaner and concise.